Sixes and sevens

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It was a hectic week. Glad it's over. But doesn't mean I can be relax, nah it's impossible! Oh hello readers. Have you smile and be grateful for today? Please do so cause people look much better with warm smile rather than frown faces, right? Anyway, above gif is cute right! But seems that it contains lot of meanings. I mean, like.... a strange relationship. Uhm, back to the title, sixes and sevens; in confusion. 

I rarely get along with the title but still trying my best tho! Lately I've been through lot of hard times, yet still got happy moments with people around me. Actually I've finished final examination for Semester 1 of 2nd year here and perhaps gonna conclude some of lessons learnt during this semester. So I live in that class for 2 years without shuffling (can i use this term actually lol). To be honestly honest, I didn't enjoy being here. But now I'm grateful to be here. It taught me lot of things. Friendship, betrayal, appreciation and much more. Inexpressible and expressible things, mixed feelings and dramas of course! 

Because people never be grateful, at first. So I took this chance to learn how is it, struggling alone. I chose this path so by hook or by crook I have to pass it. 
Even though 私はちょっと分かりづらいんだが。。。

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I guess I was shy, I mean... stay silent in class but they just don't know the true colors of everybody so... yeah I live as a shy girl... and nosy. My insanity? Shh!! I've been bullied in my dorm too (lol this is joke don't take it serious) But well, I love my roommates, I guess one of the noisiest room is ours. We gossip, laugh, fight, argue and so on. ALWAYS. The arguing part is real, they bullied me physically cause I bullied them mentally. I guess that fair and square. I can't really fight bigger and older people anyway... *heavy sigh* Never mind, I still love you guys. 

Haven't done with that class. So after few months with them, I'm happy. I still don't talk with several people... I mean, do I have to?? Got no point for that but still need to. I guess? Works that require me to talk with people like group assignment, debate things and so on... That's the only time I talk to people. Eh? (macam tipu) *Smell a rat* Anyway the most enjoyable one is Japanese class because I talk a lot. I even danced in the class but still people say I was 'ayu' in the class huhohuho ARE YOU KIDDING ME.

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We do have conflicts too. I argued with a lot of people here. I did make people cry. Oh please, I even make myself cry and it served me right. 

I actually wanna type more but lets just end here. 

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Train of thoughts in my mind but ねえ。。。
The picture above to you guys (unmention) sincerely from my deepest heart, かも。 


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Your kind of freedom?

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Alright, I'm done for introduction. Hello there! To be clear, I'm going to continue my usual life in college. It's one week to go and this mixed feeling already got on my nerves cause the calmness that I want suddenly vanished into thin air. It's like having ants in one's pants, so restless! Whatever. No matter what I need to face that upcoming days. Still unknown one but let's get through it.

十人十色。そのことが分かったから、もっと頑張りたい。

光陰矢の如し。TIME FLIES LIKE AN ARROW. My 3 weeks holiday has made me head over heels unconscious of the hardships before this. Yet I need to make comeback and struggle like I did before. Oh yah! Recently I had a very funny conversation with my friend, where I got confused with some terms in Biology. And I was like... is this really me? Getting A+ in Biology doesn't mean you're going to remember it till today. That's not me. 

I guess I'm not even get along with the title. Here we go. My kind of freedom? I don't really think about this but yeah for me I don't like being pushed by pushy one. I just wanna stand with my own little feet. That's it. Second one is I really wanna get rid of insecurities where I need to face the world full of pretty women and other kind of things that make me insecure. I know I shouldn't. That's why I gain my confidence by telling myself ''Alah kalau diorang gelap hodoh jugak''. 

I don't even bargain for myself to be outstanding but a lot of girls have same dream like that. But then I'm grateful to be who I am right now. 

  1. I was not born in silver spoon in my mouth ; That's made me realized how hard the life is. 
  2. Imperfect and full of insecurities ; Sometimes I upset being like this, how idiot because I'm so lucky because easily can get away from riak. 
  3. Useful brain, yeah I can say that ; Because I'm able to make my mom and dad proud of me. 

So? Be grateful for being who you are. However, be careful not to expose your weak point while attempting to protect yourself, 頭隠して尻隠さず - Atama kakushite, shiri kakusazu


ANYWAY, YOUR KIND OF FREEDOM? 

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