The second half of 2018


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"I'd never know how painful it was until it happened to me."
Hello dreamland. I'm back, surprisingly. With too much burdens, too much happiness and too much things, now I'm making a comeback just to comfort myself; yeah stay stuck in this kind of thing. I'd love it tho. Oh anyway, guess where am I right now? I'm in a library and currently it's  9.54 P.M. My first time writing a post for my blog in a library yeay I'm a proud blogger. xD Have you heard about new vibes? Yeah maybe this is one of em. :'D

I don't know how to start, but let me just go straight to the topic. Phew, I can say that I've been living in 2018 dramatically. Lot of things happened and there are still upcoming future that remain unclear. First of all, let me talk about my final examination (it's always a must!) But this time, it's not only a final examination, but it came with the university distribution for us. I aimed for Ritsumeikan University for my 1st choice and Toyohashi University of Technology (if I'm not mistaken that's the name) for my 2nd choice. I was a bit scared, most of us did tho... but many of them aimed Ritsumeikan University too. For last semester, I was 18th out of 70 students. My GPA was 2.94 and passed to choose Ritsumeikan and Toyohashi.  I just had it in my mind.. I can do better, so I assumed it as not really an impressive result but good job babe. 

This semester, I broke my leg. I couldn't describe how hectic it was but I did my best. Allah always with me and He helped me a lot. Mom's and dad's dua helped me a lot.  My friends did pray for us too. Thank god I'm living with this kind of people. People around me are gems that I don't want to lose. So, my current GPA is 3.36 and I'm currently at 8th out of 70 students. Yes, I'm proud. I'm proud for myself, the reason I'm writing all of these, to share my happiness to myself, spending my precious time to appreciate myself. Since we can't share all of the happiness with people. Why not? Because will you do it while they're sad? No way right! At last, I was one of them to choose Ritsumeikan University as my first choice. 

Hello, I do have a lot of things to share but I don't think so. Moving on to the second topic, might be the last topic for this post because it's getting late. I'm a coward so I need to get out from this library before 11 P.M hehe! 

So, I don't know how to explain this but I currently don't know what is happening to me. I hope I'm still normal. I regretted myself for being this weird. Now I'm regretting it. What is fun by being an abnormal? I wanna live normally. I hope so. I'm going to be okay right? That's number one! Number two, I should start giving advice to myself. You gotta this! You're a strong little girl xD stop wasting your time worrying about something that you shouldn't. If it's meant to be, inshaAllah everything's gonna be okay. I have learnt from my own mistake. Because of that, I put my trust fully in Allah. He's the only one that you can rely on. I had enough with trust issues. Yes my heart still hoping for it but I really think I should stop being overreacting before thing become worse. But hi, I will always and keep praying for the best. I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry for making troubles.. a lot to you. I can't say it directly to you but I love you tau. May Allah protects us. Good luck. I'm counting on you even though I know I shouldnt. 

Thanks for reading! :D

Flashback 2.0


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What's up! I'm back. Current time : 11.40 P.M.. Yosh! Let's begin the journey of typing for tonight. To be honestly honest, it's inexpressible. I got lot of things to say, but tonight let me just type spontaneously. ;)

So, the first topic is about my final exam. Or we called it 期末試験(KIMATSU SHIKEN) in Japanese. Before the final examination, they called students who got less than 70 marks for every subjects. I was one of them. I was a bit shocked, because I did my best though. I thought it would be my electric circuit subject because I did lot of careless mistakes and my marks was below half for my first test. LOL. But then, they did a mistake. Called a person (which is me) who shouldnt be called. Ugh. Nvm, I'm fine. And glad at the same time. I did the best I could for my final. And still hoping for 4.0 but my information processing......... :{
The second one is for my best buddy. I don't really think you will read this but hey. Thanks for everything. Thanks for always be here, through my ups and downs. You're one of the gems that I have and I will never let it go. Since 2004(unofficially lol) and let's keep counting! I love it when I need you the most, then you will come like ''can i call?'' or ''are you busy right now?''. We fight a lot too. But the best thing is when both of us know how to handle the situation, understandable! 2nd February <3

Yup, the third one goes to you, my new buddy. You would never know that I'm writing something for you but hey girl, I love you. I don't really know how to describe about that but thanks for having me in your life. We fight a lot too. Uh, basically, it's me who always start the fight. Hehe, thanks for being understanding. Remember when you cried in front of me because of your bad day? I couldn't be a hero but at least I wanna make you feel better that time, and I did it. A few weeks later, we cried together at surau HAHAHA it's funny, when it came in my mind. We didn't talk for a few weeks because i was hurt by your words xD I'm glad you're now able to express your feeling and come to have a deep talk, to settle things down. I'm a proud buddy! 

Sup, next is you. Just wanna tell that, hi. Good luck for your next new journey. I'm hoping the best for you! Don't forget me. I will never forget those kehambaran! And, kinda shock of your new move. But actually, I have been waiting for that. Okay don't ask anything. ;) Sayonara ne. 

The last, yup. The one that thought I did tweet about you, but you quite unsure too. But ended up knowing that the tweet was really for you. I don't wanna talk much. But hey, I'm sorry for making you uncomfortable of what I did say to you. I'm sorry if that will ruin everything. But nah, I don't really mind about that. It was a past. Not the current one. But that thing keeps disturbing my mind right now. You keep appear in my feed and I can't help but look and stalk.  Idk why too. But to be honest. I was, a bit hurt. I had a feeling that you lied to me. You don't but you said you do and I guess it was just to comfort me. For me, it's better to be honest than a lie to make people feel better. Let's be normal again buddy. Let's. 

So you and you and you and you. I know you guys are not reading this. But let me just tell you. Thanks for everything. And last but not least, THE TITLE IS NOT SUITABLE FOR THE CONTENT BUT NEVER MIND HAHAHA. 

Thanks for reading! :D

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